So about another month has gone by. Here I am! There are definatly ups and downs. Work at Genesis seems to be doing great. I am really trying to work hard. So I am praying that my clientele builds up and I have and leave a good witness on everyone.
I have been dating some people over the last month. Its hard. part of me would like a boyfriend just to have and everything- then part of me wants NOTHING to do with it. I dont want to have to worry about someone- what they are doing- who they are with- if they love me... Its all bull crap to me. It makes it nice to be alone. I am also sooo picky now... thats kinda hard. I guess good though- just kinda hard. haha
I am doing so much better than I used to be... although I am still bitter and still sometimes very hurt. I still dont understand somethings- but I guess its not really worth the thought. Why am I not good enough? What did I do... Lord knows my heart- I would never want to harm anyone. I still need my heart healed. I still need things sifted out in my mind. I am ready to be completly ok- but I know it takes time... and I am soo thankful that I am where I am right now- so much better than before. Its a process, slow- but I am getting there...
I can always use prayers... Lord, please be with me... I always need your help- even when I seem to be a stubborn [bad word]...
